The thirst for your poisonous love.. The lust for your witch cast body.. Presence of my voodoo doll.. The black tread tied to your neck.. A silver ring with stones on your left hand.. And a plain silver ring , In mine . The love in your eyes.. the hate in your heart.. Your craziness for breaking others… That taste of your lips.. The warmess In your breast .. Smell of your hair… The feelings you gave me when you touches my skin..
Ooh.. my lost girl..!!
They want me to move on. They want me to find happiness again.. Find love.. But how can I forget all my emotions.. We both knew that the movement I stepped out from your circle….it’s over.. ! everything Is gone , I swear I won’t survive , I can’t be controlled , I will destroy everything , I will live as a person that no one ever want in their life ..
These nights have always been my worst disaster , Nights are my curse , The moon is a monster . . It has its own world . . filled with scarecrows , wicked demons , monstrous creature . . Searching for a soul to feed their desire and thirst . . without your lullabies by my side i been hunted by these things . . your lullabies have melted my body , my soul and each cells in my body dance to your voice . . Sleeping become a day dream . . I m reaching my limits like you reached yours and left me alone with these bunch of heartless creature . . For you i was just a promise you failed to keep . . and for Me, you where my only promise i m holding on till now . . and will forever . . .
She was the queen of shadows fighting the light for survival .. And i was a trespasser who got stuck in between the shadows and lights.
When the sky meets the Earth and the wolves meet the Moon , i will come down to this Earth to be with the girl , and to take her away from this world to the world unknown ..
“she puts her hands in either side of my face , and the room falls away . I have kissed before but never gotten so lost in a kiss like this , and then the space between us explodes .
My heart keep missing its beat and my hands cannot bring her close enough to me . i tasted her lips and realize that i have been starving .
I have loved before but haven’t felt like this .. I have kissed before but it didn’t burned me alive .. Maybe it last a minute or maybe for an hour ..
All i know is that kiss and how soft her skin is …when it brushes against mine .. and then even if i don’t know until now .. I have been waiting for this girl forever “
And suddenly i woke up . This was the best nightmare i ever had . I try to smile as tears slowly travels though my cheek . . . I do realized that there was a part of me which still bleeds for her . . .
I wanna suffer more, a lot more than I ever did.. I don’t want to cry to sleep.. I want that pain that I m causing myself to make me unconscious.. I will become the play house of my demons..My skin be their food.. My Scream be their music.. My pain be their entertainment.. Worthless in this world..
You haven’t even leaved my burned heart..alone… You took that Ashes and spread that all around my Wounds.. I m suffocated from my own breath.. I have died a 1000 death already…
Still Teach me more.. Kill me more… Hurt my Wounds again and again… Choke me till I faint… Show me what pain really feels..
Those words she said has pierced thorough my remaining heart leaving nothing .. Like a stone.. I fell down with nothing left than tears through my eyes.. I haven’t cried like this before.. this time my tears has just traveled to next world..
In the world of pain I sink again.. with no intention of swimming.. Not anymore… I had enough.. I heard what I wanted to hear.. That word , which scared the shit out from me.. She said that without any hesitation..
I want to hide myself from this world again.. Feel the pain once more.. Let it show me it’s worst face… Swallow me as hard as it can.. Torcher me more.. Make me realise that how cruel it will be..
Kill me.. But slowly I wanna enjoy it more… Melt my soul.. Take me away..
I still search for you in.every crowd… In every dream.. Inside every person I met.. Still I couldn’t find you… I m doing my best..
You hide yourself in your lies.. And those things killed my trust..
In the darkest forest where light never enters.. I saw the demons slowly walking behind me whispering every thing I don’t want to hear, I screamed and run for help.. From this Creature.. Until I lost the control of my breath….
There I fell on my knees, crying, Till its whispers in my ear again.. “it’s OK you cannot run away from yourself… You are meant to be like this.. So there is no point in crying.. “I turned around my head and found out that, it was her memory that was hunting me…
The demons are back, storger than ever, they are looking for a fight.., Looking to win.. And I won’t survive this war…
Here’s to the night, I stood alone….
To the night I cried hard and couldn’t breathe…
To the night I prayed for her to come back..
And to the night where she never looked back..
I tanq for this..
Its not suicide.. It’s just the soul as black as hell.. . Leave this earth for good…!!
Love is nothing more than a fairy tale..Everything fall apart when the wave of reality hit you… I began to cry without tears.. Scream without any sound.. On each day I die a silent death.. My tears dried up..
“why you love this girl soo.. Much…why can’t you move on ”
Angle inside me whispers..
But devil.. With loud and clear voice Scream in my head .. “Cause you love her idiot “..
My demons are winning.. They never lost a fight.. As sun began to set, they rise.. With blades..and swords.. To tear me apart. Cold black demon.. Left me crying in the darkness of night.. The greatest trick of them was convincing the world that they never exist..
Those things drown me in the river of shadows.. Like a cool and clumsy bay..
She killed my angles.. And let my demons sing the last prayers..
Like the legend always says.. “that’s the thing about pain.. It demands to be felt ”